Okay, Okay, So i havent been here in a while, damn already Ill update just for u!!! ( but hey it's not my fault u dont have my space... everyone else does.. hehe.. I LOVE U RITA) But n/e ays lets see what have I've been up to??? I dont know because I dont think It has been much, seriously I've just been here working my ass of and shit pero other than that the usual... so yeah I have no drama so its not like I can vent on anything and to tell u the  truth life has been going great, I dont think I've been this happy in a while and I'm loving every minute of it... okay so I've always been worried about what other people think and to tell u all the truth I'm tired of it, I hate hurting people pero there comes a point when u have to stop caring about others atleast for a while and make urself happy.

so yeah I'm having the best time.. I'm happy, not to say that I wasnt before pero things are clearing up and well I really like him and yes him referring to Guillermo ( aka memo), yes him referring to as him my boyfriend ( its been a month) damn pretty fast pero yeah I'm happy and I couldnt ask for more.. ( eventhough theres other things I want, We cant have everything in this world.. right???) whatever I'm over it.. pero yeah I'm happy, we're happy... the way I see it either u like me or u hate me... if u like me great ( so do I) if u dont then I still like u, pero one thing is for sure I wont spend my time trying to please anyone.. we need enemys in our life to be complete ( thats the way I see it) we all cant have a perfect life... questions, comments??? I'm interested in what U have to say...  Take care peeps...

Currently Playing 20th Century Masters: The Millennium Collection By Mary Wells see related

- Once Upon A Time

Okay so time to vent... i haven't done it in a while and well shit has started to pile on me and I need to breathe... oh and once again my dates are all fucked up so it's Monday instead of Tuesday...

Damn last night was sooo bad, these feelings are returning once more and I don't know what to do with them... I hate feeling like I need to escape, like I need to move on and forget about this place, this time, this century and my life... I mean don't get me wrong I love every moment of it pero sometimes i just wish I had another life.. I try to avoid drama as much as possible but it doesn't work. I feel empty inside, even though things are going alright I feel soo empty like I have no happiness and  then I start to thnk back to last year when at this precise moment I was in Mexico enjoying myself and having fun, yeah I would still remember from time to time but everything was fine and I would just forget about things. I don't understand what's wrong with me, I just dont understand myself. I want to scream and run i want to start everything over go back to March 25 1984 and start everything over or maybe I would have love to live in the past and not have to worry about all this today.. Why I have so much pain?? I really dont know, I think that after years of suppressing stuff inside It is all finally coming out and messing with me. Let me tell u about myself.. I grew up pretty much to myself, if anything was bugging me I would just lock myself inside my room and try to forget about it... but instead of forgetting I would hold it in and continue life and that's how pretty much I grew up i think there's shit in me that I dont even remember anymore. And rhen there's this thing about friends!! One more thing I don't really like telling everyone else what I feel (  I kinda give a little taste, sort off like this) I hate exposing myself and especially crying in front of others I'm so self conscious and I hate it. So there has only been on person in my entire life who I have let into my thoughts and heart.. it was soo hard... he perhaps knows me inside and out I consider him my best friend...

but it seems that when I really need him he's never there... I think that's what bugs me the most MY BEST FRIEND not being here and even if he is, I feel he chooses to ignore me and later remember I had called and then pretend everything is cool... I hate loosing friends especially those really close to me... it's an afwul feeling and i would really hate loosing him...

So I want to run and hide... i want to meet new people... I want to go to Neverland or an enchanted forest where everyone lives happily ever after.. I always dreamed I would meet peter pan and we would fly to neverland where I would never grow up... I guess that never happened

So what am I doing ??? Good questions cause I dont even now... 

sorry it's so long...

STUPID 19... ALWAYS MESSES WITH MY HEAD, ALWAYS MAKES ME REMEMBER AND FEEL LIKE SHIT I HATE IT...

IS THERE ANY WAY TO ELIMINATE THE DAY 19TH FROM THE FACE OF THE WORLD? LET ME KNOW...

HEY EVERYONE...

DAMN IT'S BEENA WHILE, BUT I'M BACK! WELL LET'S SEE IT'S BEEN A LITTLE CRAZY BUT FINALS CAME AND WENT AND WELL KNOW THERES THE ANXIETY OF WAITING FOR GRADES I HATE THAT FEELING. BUT YEAH OTHER THAN THAT THIS WEEKEND WAS COOL. LET'S SEE I HAD A FINAL LAST MONDAY, WEDNESDAY AND FRIDAY AND WHEN I WASNT STUDYING I WAS WORKING MY ASS OFF. THE WEEK BEFORE I WAS STRESSING OVER POSADA, WHICH BY THE WAY WAS GREAT... I LOVE MY COMMITTEE THEY DID AND AWESOME JOB( THANKS GUYS) AND I THINK OVER ALL IT WAS AN AWESOME TURNOUT... BUT ANYWAYS  BACK TO THIS WEEKEND, ON FRIDAY WE CELBRATED OR END OF FINALS AND MADE A LITTLE TRIP TO TJ. I HAD LOTS OF FUN ... I LOVE TJ NIGHTS, IF ANYTHING  MY FAVORITE PART OF BEING FROM SAN DIEGO IS HAVING TJ 5MIN AWAY FROM ME BUT YEAH ( THANKS U, YEAH U,  FOR MAKING IT FUN...)

SO NOW I'M HERE IN MY APARTMENT ALL LONELY, ALL MY ROOMIES ARE GONE AND WELL IT SUCKS COMING HOME TO AN EMPTY APARTMENT. PERO I'LL DEAL... I'VE BEEN WORKING LIKE CRAZY SO AT LEAST THAT KEEPS ME BUSY, AND I GOT MY FIRST PAYCHECK SO I CAN'T WAIT TO GO SHOPPING FOR CHRISTMAS... WELL I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO UR VISIT, AND URS TOO!!! I'M QUITE EXCITED AS A MATTER OF FACT.. WELL I'M GOING HOME THIS WEDNESDAY SINCE I DONT WORK AND SO I'M HAPPY CAUSE I'M GONNA SEE MY FAMILY... WELL PEEPS I'M GONNA GO MIMI CAUSE I'M TIRED... GIVE ME A CALL IF UR BORED ... TAKE CARE EVERYONE AND HAVE A FUN AND SAFE WINTER BREAK...

                                                                                                 GRISEL

FINALS WHAT ELSE CAN I SAY....

n/e ways this weekend was great, I had a lot of fun and I saw some people who I had not seen in a while. I guess u can say i didnt have a traditional Thanksgiving dinner, since my mom was not home I went with my bro to Puerto Nuevo. It was delicious I had Shimp and Lobster UUUMMM DELICIOSO...

well Yey isnt it funny how things work out, not so long ago I was missing him and then out of no where there he is... I love surprises I can't wait one more month!  

On another note, i dropped my bio class cause it just wasnt happening... and I saw my cool friend it had been a while... damn  I missed kicking it with him. AND YEAH ANOTHER  PARTY !!!! THIS FRIDAY

 Oh and today was my second day at work... Cause for those of u who dont know I work at sears now it was crazy  I got to work the cash register, that is always fun ... I can't wait

SO CROSS UR FINGERS EVERYONE AND WISH ME GOOD LUCK ON FINALS